Standing by the mailboxes
of the assisted living facility
in which he now resides
against his will, despite the
excellent care and social
interactions with people
other than his cat, who
moved with him after the
fall that spurred the fretful
drift of daughters, whose fear
for his safety is equaled only by
surprise that he’s lived so many
years after Momma died,
to move him from his home
without discussion, knowing
he’d refuse to leave if asked
and honoring your father
should exclude hog-tying and
carrying him to this place where
every need is met except the
one for independence, so all was
done on the sly, and the rooms
with his things in place look like
the home he’ll never see again,
which makes him swear like a sailor
though he knows it’s for the best,
he looks shrunken like a wool
sweater after a hot wash, half
the him he was, so tall and
handsome, and I could touch
the sky when I rode his shoulders
or see the world in the stories he told
and believe that growing was what
children did without understanding
that it doesn’t stop when you’re this
big but keeps going ‘til you’re small
again, afraid of disappearing.
He smiled at my approach and
kissed me on the cheek, but when
asked if he was happy, he snarled
and spat like his cat when there’s too
many corners and the only out is up.
© Dana Hughes 8.31.16
What do I say? This is beautiful in an aching, rueful, inevitable sort of way. I marvel at your ability to string thoughts along the wire of grammar to make not just a sentence but an experience, and one that isn’t linear but loops back on itself to lift out meanings left imbedded in the first thing you say. You make me hurt and celebrate all at the same time.
thank you my friend. i’m so grateful for your response.
Perfection. Piercing. True. Ache.
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